little baby girl

so apparently a random day last week was national daughter's day. i kind of feel like a jerk because i'm pretty sure we missed national sons day. but then again our boys are pretty darn spoiled so every day is really national sons day.

d is 36 weeks pregnant. a little baby girl is about to enter our lives and throw everything gloriously up in the air. cant really put into words how excited i am. i think part of it stems from the fact that i know this is the last one...that makes me want to enjoy every single second of it. i think the second thing that makes me excited is the fact that d and i are blessed that we get to have three completely different and unique parenting experience. vincent was our first, which was crazy in and of itself. dommy reshifted every single paradigm we had about parenting and made us better stronger and more loving people. and now a little girl? man. we are lucky lucky people.

baby 3 was close to not happening. with everything that's happened over the past few years d and i wondered whether we'd have the time and energy to have/raise another child. both of us really really wanted a third, but just didnt know if that would be a good idea. all of that flipped on a dime one day. we went to get a second opinion from a physiatrist in houston...and the guy basically told us that the pathway we were on was correct and that while surgery might be a good option down the road, right now it wasnt the right thing. that was hard to hear. it was like being rejected for the second time in a row.

we went to grab some lunch from smashburger (random that i remember that), and when i got back in the car d looked at me and said "i've made a decision"...i thought it was going to be something having to do with surgery/medication etc. but she looked at me and told me that she'd decided that we were going to have a third. she said that we thought we'd wait to make a decision on a third when life got a little easier...but the reality was that life wasnt going to get any easier--we just needed to get tougher. and if life wasnt going to get easier, why not throw a baby in the mix? why not give our two sons a little sibling? we've always made it a point to not let dommy's CP define who he is or who we are as a family. and with the decision to have a third we were committing to that point. and it was the absolute right thing for us and our boys.

flashforward 30 some odd weeks and here we are. hospital bag packed. crib all ready to go, and shelve in our room full of random baby stuff. completely impractical pink frilly outfits purchased. amazon prime subscribe and save updated to include newborn diapers.

mannnn i cant even tell you. my heart grows by a million sizes when i think of our daughter hanging out with her brothers. my heart grows when i think of my wife nursing a newborn. my heart grows when i think about dommy and vincent BOTH being big brothers.

giddy up. we've got a fun season coming up.