SDR Day

it's 9 oclock and i've been up since 3 am, so you'll have to excuse me if this gets rambly and overly emotional.

a two year long dream was actualized today. the first time we heard about SDR was when dommy was about a year old knowing that we couldnt apply until he was 2. at 2 we got turned down and told to reapply when he was 3. at 3 we reapplied and got accepted...and here we are at 3.5 years old.

not to mention the anticipation of getting here for the past two months. everyday has felt like two days...one day full of the normal routine, but also filled with 24 hours of fretting about logistics, leaving our eldest with his grandparents for two weeks....not to mention our sweet gommy having his vertebrae cracked open, spinal nerves untangled and then cut. it's been draining.

but here we are.

about a week and a half ago we were at home and gommy bunny hopped (as he's known to do) over to our staircase and tried to get up the first step. he knows the motions well...lift one leg up, push with the other all with your hands on the second step, but his tightness wouldnt let him get up that first step. he wanted it so damn bad. he tried and and tried and after a while started crying out of frustration.

i picked him up and told him that as God was my witness, i was going to get him up those steps. we were going to get to the top of our staircase.

coincidentally enough yesterday at our pre-op PT evaluation he saw a set of stairs and managed to get up the first step by himself. i feel like that was his way of saying "you do your part dad, God will do his part, and I'm damn sure going to do my part"

so now one big step is done. it's time for recovery. the it's time to do 5 PT sessions a week for the next 6 months.

none of this has been easy. it wont be easy moving forward.

but it's so worth it. so very worth it.

today was a good day. today was the first day of what's going to be a series of good days.